I told Desirae how I felt about her bestfriend.
Due to a picture that made me get all worked up.
Things were said and I know I will never open my mouth about how I feel again about something, because what was said and how it was handled upset me.
Honestly, I am still upset.
I’m going on with my days and nights like nothings wrong,
but everything is not okay anymore.
I keep reading the text that she said “she helps me and doesn’t judge me” broke my heart completely.
What if she is there more than I ever was and ever can be.
what if she makes her smile when I am upsetting her or making her mad.
Those are what bestfriends are for right?
If I lose her, because of her I will be crushed.
It’s like a battle.
friendship and a relationship.
I won’t win.
I’m barley realizing that I’m going to have to be without you once you go to the navy.
It’s already killing me.
Am I going to be able to do it?
That’s not even a question,
because guess what.
I am absolutely in love with you Desirae Autumn.
I couldn’t even describe how happy I am that you’re taking this path.
I’m going to be the girlfriend you need.
I’m going to be 100% positive when you’re gone.
Ill wait the days, weeks, months, and even years,
because I am in love with you,
so no distance nor time can take the love we have away.
I am so damn lucky to have a girl like you Desirae.
SO damn lucky.
What I’m trying to say desirae is that it’s not going to be easy.
It may be really hard,
but I’m willing to wait and do whatever it takes,
so I can watch you.
The love of my like dreams come true.